- turn into a new leaf

well,
today is the last second week of our prefect group~

well,
hui yan and soon wei cried~
well,
it seems to have changed and touched my mind
i suddenly feel that i don wanna leave this group
it makes me feel ALONE
i don wanna feel alone
it reali makes me scared.....

suddenly,
i feel that,
everyone in the group reali takes care of each other....
mostly hui yan,
she tries to understand me,
she wants to breaks through the mist of confusion inside me....
but,
i've failed her....
i just think that its so simple,
why shud you bother me like that.....
well,
after thinking now,
i felt dreadfully ashamed of what i have done
i wanna turn into a new leaf
i wanna make everyone know who the hell i am
i don wanna be the blacklisted guy in prefectorial board

well,
our groups members reali care each other~
they are kind,
friendly,
good-hearted people which i am admiring now
i shud be more kinder and open minded
now i have regret what i have done before
for now,
i could be more better....
why am i so stubborn?
why that time i'm so.....
childish?

it reali makes me feel ashamed.....
sad....
dreadful....
regretful...
i wish time could just come back,
for the time we ,
the third group,
to be together once more.....
and i wish that,
i could be more better than last time,
thinking that i'm the only king,
everyone needs to suite me....
now,
i wish that i haven't been like this
i wish that i'm will not be like this in the future
i meant to change the way i am now
well
i am changing
i am piercing through the "skin of badness"
i will be good
i will be more mature
i will be better
i will be more responsible
i will be more sensible

God bless me in the future
May God guide me through all these

finally,
I MEANT TO BE A NEW LEAF
I DON WANNA BE A ROTTEN LEAF


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