To be or not to be, That is the question.

I can't decide what i want.
I can't think of what i need to do.
I can't think of a way to do it.
I can't ensure the next step is the correct step.
I can't fulfill my own desires.
I can't seriously face this.

What can i do next?
I really really dunno what to do.

Asked my friends for advices
They told me that i didn't put any effort.
But...
What's the meaning of effort?
Well,
It's my first time to face something as strange as you.
I probably lost steps between him and you.
And i won't be clinging the walls so tightly if it isn't him which started.
But...
I don't have the courage to climb up back or just face what's below.
Should i risk it?
Should i do what i'm adviced to do?
Or should i just....
Let it go?

Damn headache with all these problems...
Dunno
whether to take the risk or not.

God bless me....




*Wish you're here to see this, But you can't.


-octopus aka confidential-