firstly
yesterday was a very bad day
it isn't suppose to be like this
it shouldn't
but i just happened

i shouldn't just think of myself
i shouldn't just think of what i want
i should think
others also

i shouldn't be so selfish
i shouldn't be so mean
i shouldn't be so bad
i'm regretting of what i have done
please
i wanna aplogize
but i don't have the guts to do that

dear mum :
i'm really sorry to have been such a bad boy to you.
i know that i only think of what i want
but i didn't even think of what you all think for me
i'm really regretting for what i have done and act yesterday
yesterday should be a very happy day
but turns out
to be a very sad sad day

you cried
i have hurt you badly
but that time
for me
i just think of what i still want
i shouldn't think like that
but after you all went out
i though of it again
and then
i realized that i was very very very wrong from the moment i start making the ugly face

i felt ashamed for what i have done
i felt sad from yesterday till now
i don't have the mood to do anything
but facts are facts
it has been done
the only thing to do is face the facts
and don't turn and escape
but i couldn't face it
i think i'm to ashamed from what i have done
so i don't wanna face it
but really
i just wanna apologize to you

you have done so much things for me
uncountable things for me
but i don't even apperiacte anything
you put lots of efforts on me
but i didn't even manage to do anything to you
what should i do?
i'm a rubbish
i'm a rubbish
i am a very smell rubbish

yesterday everyone was sad
you cried and cried
and i don't have any expression on my face
but lately after thinking of what i have done
my heart started bleeding madly
my eyes started shedding tears
i shouldn't do that to you

really
i'm very sorry mum
really
please forgive me
i really mean it

i will manage everything you have asked me to
i will do anything you say
just please forgive me







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