- what is it?

why am i feeling like this?
why am i talking like this?
this isn't my attidute,
this isn't my style....
why am i doing like this?
is jealousy taking over me?
is hate taking over me?

cannot stand how they talk....
cannot stand how they laugh....
cannot stand how they do everything....
why am i like this?

it shouldn't be like that....
i should stay away from it....
i should have control my temper....
i should have talk silently to myself....
but....
why do i do things which i don't like?

wish i could shout out my mood now,
but,
there isn't someone to speak with...
there isn't someone to shout with....
there isn't someone to share with....
what could i do?

it feels so weird....
i feel there's something boiling inside me....
but what is it?
i don't know......


how?


god help me.....














-sad sad sad octopus-